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Hi [30 Jun 2007|10:45pm]
[ mood | high ]

I never write in here anymore.
Probably because I don't have anything to say.

Yay summer!
Summer is good.
It makes me happy.
Like your mom.

When I grow up, I want to be a Dinosaurologist.
I don't want to grow up though.
So I'll just be a dinosaur.


Envy The Sinners

[07 Mar 2007|06:05pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

zomg! teh computorz works!
and teh room is clean!!!
^_^ i are teh happies.

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and pretty.

though i do need to get my hair re-done.
hopefully sooooon!


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Finals [06 Dec 2006|03:23pm]
[ mood | working ]

Final papers suuuuuuck.


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[30 Oct 2006|02:07am]
I'm kind of getting sick of people looking at me as just a friend.
This mostly applies to the guys I like...
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[11 Oct 2006|11:57pm]
Boys fucking suuuuuuuuuck.
I need to find a good one.
Or a girl. But those are fairly scarce.

I've been really overwhelmed these last few weeks.
School and everything.
I'm ready for this fucking break.

I feel like a 9th grader ranting to this thing again.
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[03 Oct 2006|02:05am]
[ mood | bored ]

jade and glass (2:01:48 AM): well hopefully he'll come to his senses sooner and realize how fucking lucky he was to be with someone as amazing as you
jade and glass (2:02:09 AM): the boy should be begging for you back, and praying to his fucking stars that you say yes
jade and glass (2:02:48 AM): and im speaking the truth and the truth alone
kissed by pixis (2:02:58 AM): i appreciate it
kissed by pixis (2:03:04 AM): though if it weren't true, i know you'd still say it heh
jade and glass (2:03:13 AM): no i wouldnt
jade and glass (2:03:21 AM): my flattery doesnt come cheep

I'm glad someone realizes how good I am. Even if it is just a friend.
A great friend.


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[02 Oct 2006|05:59pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Listening to Death Cab for Cutie's I Will Follow You Into the Dark reminds me of one of my favorite memories. Hanging outside of Stu and Pat's room last semester, on a cool spring day, with Pat playing the song on his guitar, with a few of us singing along. I was free. I didn't have a boyfriend. I didn't have exs here. I didn't have any hardcore crushes. I had no previous association to people at this school. No burned bridges. No one I felt the need to cling to and have hold me. It was just me. And I miss that.

I'm going to try to achieve that feeling. With fall coming, I may be able to. I don't know what it is about fall and winter. It's when my hardest breakups have happened, the last three years in a row. And somewhere between the seasons...I've become okay. The one before last...not so much. I was able to stabalize a little, but my real breakthrough didn't come til this fall. But I can do it. I don't want to let go yet...I have faith in the compatability of us. But I don't want to...feel the want/need to see him for a good portion of the day. Which I am doing better, I think. Nights are hard. I won't lie. Nights are the hardest.

First step to recovery is admitting there's a problem, right?
It's not really a problem, per se.
Just...something I want to chage.

Oh and for clairification, this is about the last one.


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[02 Oct 2006|05:16am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Don't you just hate it when someone is the sweetest person in the world to you even after they break up with you?
When you know they love you...but just don't want you right then?

Yeah. It kinda sucks.

Though it is nice knowing that he loves me.
I just have to sit and wait.

I'm not really waiting.
That'd be pathetic.
I just haven't found anyone else that I'm really interested in.
Plus it was a big step in my life...and I'm not over it yet.
I'm holding out hope, but I'm not closing myself off.

I do love him, after all.

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Fuck [21 Sep 2006|01:57am]
[ mood | depressed ]

So I guess its not one that could work.
I really liked him too.

Loved him.
Love him.

He said he loves me. He cares about me. That I was perfect. He just can't be in a relationship right now.

Like I said. Fuck.

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[02 Sep 2006|10:21pm]
The story of my life has changed.

I'm so glad I'm at New College again.
And I'm so glad I've been meeting the people I have.

I think this one could actually work out. ^_^

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[19 Jul 2006|11:47pm]
[ mood | determined ]

I am a strumpet.
So called by the marvelous Miss Nean.

I met a really cool guy.
His name is Borja.
He's from Spain.
He goes back in 10 days.
Thus is the story of my life.

In other news...
I miss New College.
1 month and 3 days til I go back.
But only 1 week and 1 day til I get to see Scotty, Geoff, Andrew and Toner.

I miss being in a relationship...I miss a certain someone...

But yeah, life is pretty kickass right now. Minus the living at home.
Oh oh oh. Phantom, by Terry Goodkind is out.

This whole post was created just to say that I am a strumpet.
Per request by said person who hath named me.


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[24 Jun 2006|09:17pm]
[ mood | loved ]

To all my closest friends, new and old:

How wonderful life is, now you're in the world.

I don't know how I would survive without you guys. I love you.


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[23 Jun 2006|08:15pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Dyed my hair a different color for the first time in 2.5 years.

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I'm awesome.

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[16 Jun 2006|01:42am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Happy Birthday to me!

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I'm officially 19. Yay.

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fuck. [29 May 2006|08:47pm]
[ mood | extremely hurt ]

Why do people think it's okay to lie to my face? Do they really think I won't find out? Don't fucking tell me you've given me no reason not to trust you as you're in the middle of a lie. Now I KNOW I can't trust you. And where does that put us? You're my closest friend. Do you think it's okay to break promises to me? To put this rift between us? All I've done is loved and cared about you, and this is how you repay me? By breaking a promise to me, and further hurting me by disregarding any trust issues you knew I had? You're an adult now. Act like one. Breaking our promise in such a way is not acting like an adult, and won't get you anywhere happily in life. You try to act all mature about relationships, but you're not. I'm expected to change. But why. I'm the one who knows how to handle things. In college, things are different. I'm appreciated because I know how to be mature in a relationship. You, however, are still a child. I may have my fair share of problems, but own up to your own. I'm sick of being the bad guy. I never hurt you like this. Why did you have to do it to me?

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[18 May 2006|01:58am]
[ mood | excited ]


I finished my last paper today, at 1.30 am. And I can party from now until sunday, when I have to move back home.

I am so fucking happy.


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[11 May 2006|12:57pm]
[ mood | determined ]

So I found a cd of pictures from like, a year ago, and I realized how much weight I've gained this semester.
It made me extremely sad.
I'm getting rid of it.
The fat, not the cd.


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ps [26 Apr 2006|12:32pm]
[ mood | aggravated and upset ]

"i'll be your best kept secret and your biggest mistake"
i truly am.

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[26 Apr 2006|12:19pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

For anyone who isn't yet in college, there is one lesson you need to learn.
You will hate your roommate by the end of a semester.
Unless you're just special and roomed with a friend, or have an understanding of how things work.

For me, neither of those things happen.

I provided everything in this room. The couch, the fridge, the microwave, the toaster oven, the brita filter, the filter replacements, the silverware, the dishes, all the cleaning supplies, etc.

What does she do to help?
Jack shit.

I clean the room, I empty the trash when it's overflowing [not on a regular basis because hey, I actually go to classes and work my ass off to stay in college instead of just fucking around and getting high]. I make sure that I refill the water pitcher, and put it back in the fridge when I'm done. I do my dishes, I'm quiet if she's sleeping or studying, I respect her existance.

She washes dishes every now and again. If she tracks leaves in the room, she doesn't clean it up. She doesn't empty the recyling bin that she's insistant on keeping [i'm okay with recycling. but if it's your idea, you empty it. i'm about to just throw it all out]. She wakes up at 8am and makes so much fucking noise, has people over and has loud conversations with them. She tries to sexile me at 3am when I've already been sleeping. She blatantly disregards anything I ask of her to help out [like hey, can you clean all those old unused bottles out of the fridge cause I cleaned the rest of the room]. And it just pisses me off.

I am so glad I'm living with who I am next year.
I'm so glad I'll have my own room, and will just have to deal with the common room.
Which shouldn't be that bad.

I'm glad I'll be living with people who need the air on at night, and don't sleep naked or refuse to put clothes on so they end up just turning the air off and waking me up.

I'm supposed to be studying for a test right now. I'm ranting and cleaning instead, while she's off with her boyfriend.
This is not my idea of fun.

And even so, I don't fucking want this semester to end because it's better than living at home.


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[24 Apr 2006|02:48pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

It's 2.45.

I've slept one hour since 11.30 yesterday.
And that was at 1 today.

Thought processes aren't very strong.

Concentration is 0.

I have class at 3.30 - 5...

I should probably eat sometime too...
Maybe shower...

Shit. I have a bunch of stuff to do too.

I just wanna have fuuuuun.
And sleep...

Esp next to someone.
My bed just feels so big and lonely lately.

I want someone to just cuddle up next to me, and sleep with me.
I love cuddling. It's so good, and it happens so rarely.

Man, this is going to be fuckin' intense til I can get a decent amount of sleep.
Now to find someone to use as a human stuffed animal...

Yeah, that's not going to happen.

Meh, such is life.

Seriously. I'm so drained I can't even actually get upset about stuff.
Which is okay. I've actually been really good about not getting upset or letting things bother me, or getting into that OCD repetitive thought process. I've been working hard on it. I'm so freaking proud of myself.

Okay serously.
Stfu now.

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